In an attempt to be poetic.
I'm Jesh. 18 years old. Currently taking up BS Computer Science at UP Manila.
I love books and music. And food. I have a flair for the dramatic. I write poems and songs. Half-realist, half-hopeless romantic. Caffeine addict. Extroverted introvert. I'm weird like that.

#personal #writings #poems 
11 July 2014 | 1:24 AM | 0 letters
(Yeah, I know. I answer too many of these things.)

1.Kissed a girl?
- Yup
2.Kissed a boy?
- Yup
3.Had sex in public?
- Hahaha
4.What’s your religion?
- I don't exactly have one
5.What does your URL mean?
- (this is from tumblr so I'll be explaining dreamermeetsreality) I kind of got the idea from a book called Boy Meets Girl. I'm a dreamer. I tend to dream a lot of things. I actually daydream too much. So basically dreamermeetsreality describes my life, how I'm a dreamer who is constantly in between my dreams and the harsh reality. I can dream all I want but I have to wake up and face life eventually. That's what my life is all about: a dreamer who tries to dream up the perfect life she wants to have but nevertheless has to deal with reality.
6.Reason you joined tumblr?
- I just wanted to try it.
7.Do you have any nicknames?
- Esh, Jeshy/Jeshie, Jeshu
8.Do you like bubble bath?
- Yup
9.Kissed in the rain?
- Kind of
10.Dyed your hair?
- Yes
11.Soup or salad?
- Salad
12.Vegetable or meat?
- Meat
13.Go out drinking?
- Sure
14.Smoke cigarettes?
- I wish I could but I'm asthmatic
15.Smoke weed?
- Nah
16.Do any hard drugs?
- Haha no
17.Have you had sex today?
- Nope
18.Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
- Yes
19.The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
- Best friends
20.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
- Yeah
21.Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
- Hmm nope
22.Tried to commit suicide?
- Yes..
23.The last time you felt broken?
- I can't remember. Last week?
24.Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?
- Pretty much
25.Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
- No
26.Do you have Long hair OR short hair?
- Long hair ftw
27.First thing you notice about a guy/girl?
- Face
28.Do you sing in the shower?
- Yes I doooo
29.Do you dance in the car?
- Noooo
30.Where were you yesterday?
- I was out shopping
31.Ever used a bow and arrow?
- I've held one but I never actually used one
32.Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
- Last Christmas
33.Do you think musicals are cheesy?
- Noooo. I love them <3
34.Is Christmas stressful?
35.Favorite type of fruit pie?
- Are mango bars considered pie?
36.Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
- Hmmm well I wanted to be an artist first, then I wanted to be an architect. I also wanted to be a cartoonist. When I was 9, I decided that I wanted to be a programmer. Well, here I am.
37.Do you believe in ghosts?
- Hmm not sure
38.Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
- Yeah
39.Take a vitamin daily?
- I try
40.Wear slippers?
- Yes
41.Wear a bath robe?
- No
42.What do you wear to bed?
- Comfortable clothes
43.Do you want to get married?
- Errrr no not really but.. it's complicated ok
44.Can you curl your tongue?
- Yes

Relationship preference:
45.How many relationships have you had?
- 3 serious relationships
46.How can I win your heart?
- My heart is not a prize to be won.
47.What makes a great relationship?
- When you two can act like best friends.
48.Shy OR open?
- Open
50.Religious OR non-religious?
- Non. I don't mind about the other person being religious as long as s/he doesn't try to drag me into her/his religion.
51.Caring OR non-restricting of you?
- Non-restricting.
52.Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
- Hmmmm a balance of both would be perfect nice
53.Piercings OR no piercings?
- Does it really matter?
54.Tattoos OR no tattoos?
- It doesn't really matter.
55.Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
- Again, a balance of both. Or maybe more of the latter. Hmmhmm

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I was feeling down last night so today I had a mani-pedi.
07 July 2014 | 5:33 PM | 0 letters


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A hundred and fifty.
06 July 2014 | 12:20 AM | 0 letters
1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
- Jacob
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
- It depends, usually the former
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
- Jacob, and basically everyone else I haven't seen in a long time
4. Are you easy to get along with?
- HAHA If we have the same frequency, yes. If not, NOOOO HELL NO
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
- Maybe if he was present... if.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
- The people who make me laugh, I guess? Idk haha
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
- Mmmmf no
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
- Jacob
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
- Maybe if I'm talking to a parent or some older relative
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
- Paolo
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
- Uhhh I don't remember and my phone's off so I can't check
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
- Miracle, Playing God, My Heart, Ain't It Fun, For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic (all from Paramore, of course)
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
- Ugh no, I'll kill you
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
- Yes but not always
15. What good thing happened this summer?
- I got myself a job, I started learning French again, I finished some books, I'm watching Friends, hmm what else
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
- Yeah
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
- There is
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
- Hmm no
19. Do you like bubble baths?
- Yes
20. Do you like your neighbors?
- Um, I don't know them
21. What are your bad habits?
- I hate myself too much
22. Where would you like to travel?
- Europe, Japan, South Korea, Singapore
23. Do you have trust issues?
- Serious trust issues
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
- The part where I get to sleep for 10 hours
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
- Uhhhh my hair?
26. What do you do when you wake up?
- Look for my phone and check the time
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
- Pink-er
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
- My best friends
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
- Haha yeah
30. Do you ever want to get married?
- Errrrr probably? Though I can't see myself in a marriage, well, uh, idk
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
- Yes!
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
- Ed Westwick and Blake Lively
33. Spell your name with your chin.
- jmkdfsxzbhn
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
- Mm no, not really
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
- Yes
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
- "Huy magsalita ka naman"
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
- Woop I don't have one
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
- No specific store, I just walk in and if I want something, I buy it
40. What do you want to do after high school?
- I'm in college..
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
- Yeah, why not? No one knows what they're doing the first time around
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
- That I'm shutting everything off
43. Do you smile at strangers?
- Sometimes
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
- Outer space
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
- Hmm, I don't know. The sad truth that I can't stay in bed forever, maybe?
46. What are you paranoid about?
- Everything
47. Have you ever been high?
- No
48. Have you ever been drunk?
- Yes
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
- Uhhhhhhhhhh no
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
- Pink
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
- Yes, countless of times
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
- My life?
53. Favourite makeup brand?
54. Favourite store?
- McDonalds lol
55. Favourite blog?
- mine, duhh
56. Favourite colour?
- Blue
57. Favourite food?
- Pizza, chocolate, burgers, fries (sorry I can't decide)
58. Last thing you ate?
- KFC Chicken
59. First thing you ate this morning?
- KFC Chicken lol
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
- Yes. Um - singing, essay writing, slogan making, etc
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
- Nah
62. Been arrested? For what?
- Nope
63. Ever been in love?
- I think so
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
- I was young and stupid
65. Are you hungry right now?
- A bit
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
- Sometimes
67. Facebook or Twitter?
- Twitter
68. Twitter or Tumblr?
- Tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?
- Nooo
70. Names of your bestfriends?
- Jacob, Nathan, Kit, Dankaye, James
71. Craving something? What?
- Food
72. What colour are your towels?
- I'm currently using the yellow one
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
- 2 (like the number of 72s in this survey lol)
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
- Nope
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
75. Favourite animal?
- Dogs
76. What colour is your underwear?
- White
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
- Errr this is hard but.. vanilla
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
- Strawberry
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
- Blue
80. What colour pants?
- Beige?
81. Favourite tv show?
82. Favourite movie?
- I can't decide
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
- I haven't even watched 2 yet
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
- Uhhh Mean Girls
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
- Cady
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
- Dory
87. First person you talked to today?
- My mom
88. Last person you talked to today?
- My mom
89. Name a person you hate?
- Haha no
90. Name a person you love?
- Um Jake
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
92. In a fight with someone?
- No not really
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
- Zero
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
- More than 5?
95. Last movie you watched?
- Transformers
96. Favourite actress?
- Jennifer Lawrence
97. Favourite actor?
- Johnny Depp
98. Do you tan a lot?
- No
99. Have any pets?
- Yes
100. How are you feeling?
- Empty
101. Do you type fast?
- Yes
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
- I try not to
103. Can you spell well?
- Yes
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
- No
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
- No
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
- I guess
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
- No
108. What should you be doing?
- Nothing. Sleeping?
109. Is something irritating you right now?
- No
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
- Yes
111. Do you have trust issues?
- Um, I answered this already
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- Jacob, I guess
113. What was your childhood nickname?
- Jesh
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
- Yes
115. Do you play the Wii?
- Yes
116. Are you listening to music right now?
- Oddly, no
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
- It's fine
118. Do you like Chinese food?
- Hmm yeah
119. Favourite book?
- You can't make me choose.
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
- No
121. Are you mean?
- I can be
122. Is cheating ever okay?
- I don't know
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
- No
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- No
125. Do you believe in true love?
-  Love is love
126. Are you currently bored?
- Obviously
127. What makes you happy?
- Food
128. Would you change your name?
- No
129. What your zodiac sign?
- Capricorn
130. Do you like subway?
- No, haven't tried one yet
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
- Haha I think I'm already stuck in that situation
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
- Why do the questions keep repeating wth
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
- "We'll get it right this time"
134. Can you count to one million?
- I can but I won't.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
- Can't remember. I'm a good liar hohoho
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
- Closed
137. How tall are you?
- A few cm over 150
138. Curly or Straight hair?
- Wavy
139. Brunette or Blonde?
- Copper blonde
140. Summer or Winter?
- Summer
141. Night or Day?
- Night
142. Favourite month? 
- January
143. Are you a vegetarian?
- No
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
- Milk
145. Tea or Coffee?
- Coffee
146. Was today a good day?
- Hmm so so
147. Mars or Snickers?
- UGH Mars
148. What’s your favourite quote?
- "Dreams don't work unless you do"
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
- Not sure
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
- It's a blank page. Hm.

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Please Don't Leave Me by P!nk
16 June 2014 | 1:24 AM | 0 letters

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Da da da, da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many times have I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no

I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Baby, please, please don't leave me

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A very meaningful quote.
12 June 2014 | 11:12 PM | 0 letters
I found this while scrolling through my Tumblr dashboard:
Do me a favor okay?
Stop trying to go back to who you were before. Before you were raped, before you got sick before an eating disorder took over your life. stop trying to be who you were five, ten, twenty years ago. Before the mental illness took over, before he died, back before your parents split or you lost your best friend.
You are NOT the same person as before. You never will be again. Give up the idolization of “before” and be who you are now. Be the you AFTER.

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Goal: Listen to all of TSwift's unreleased songs.
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Be Here by Parachute
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Well she wants to get in
and she wants to get out
but the city, it calls her name
and the scars that she hides
with those stars in her eyes
Like the echoes, they're all the same

'Cause its all been done before
Yes it's all been done before

And oh, you can let this one go
you can try on your own
but I want you to be here
And oh, now the signs are all quiet
and the streets are all tired
and I want you to be here

Well she's sick of this town 
and the walls of this house
but her pride just wont let her see
that when she swears that she's made
with a heart that won't break
she could be dead but she'd still believe

That it's all been done before
Yes, it's all been done before

And oh, you can let this one go
you can try on your own
but I want you to be here
And oh, now the signs are all quiet
and the streets are all tired
and I want you to be here
Oh, I want you to be here

They can tell that they want you to stay for what you've done
They can tell you that it's alright to be what you've become
And you go cause you know it's for sure

Oh, you can let this one go
you can try on your own
but I want you to be here
And oh, now the signs are all quiet
and the streets are all tired
and I want you to be here

But oh, now i tried to be quiet
but this heart is on fire
and I want you to be here
I want you to be here
I want you to be here
I want you to be here
I want you to be here


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I had a date with this pretty girl today. :>

Wavy brown hair.

Yeah, we fit into a single chair.

"Coordinate natin poses natin."

Yeah, we've been this vain since high school.


Matching high cheekbones.

What she calls the "social climber" smile

I love these pictures. I loved the kwentuhan. But I love this girl more. 
Looking forward to more dates like this!

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The Fault In Our Stars (Spoiler Alert)
11 June 2014 | 9:55 PM | 0 letters
I watched this movie yesterday with Jacob. I knew I was gonna cry because I cried over the book but I didn't expect to be on the verge of crying just 15 minutes after the movie started. I was probably still crying 15 minutes after the movie ended, too. I like how the movie stayed true to the book. Well, maybe not really about the part where Augustus Waters died. Augustus has died twice already in my lifetime -- first, in the book and second, in the movie. I'd love to watch the movie again sometime but I'm not really sure I wanna see Augustus die again. And again. I also like how the movie had all the #hugot quotes, which I have memorized by heart. I like how the portrayal was so natural. I didn't have any moments where I felt like there was something wrong or that they didn't quite fit the role. Number of movies which I felt gave justice to the book: Two -- "The Fault In Our Stars" and "The Perks of Being A Wallflower". The cast did an amazing job. I still hate how Augustus had to die. And the book is still better.

The poster.

Some quotes I love.

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| 9:22 PM | 0 letters
I was bored while riding the bus so I decided to edit this photo.

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